It was. Still is, sometimes, thinking back. It's not easy, coming to terms with that. It got worse over time, more extreme, and I hated what we were doing.

[She drops her eyes to their hands, and she gives his a small, comforting squeeze.]

What I'm trying to say is... I have a lot of blood on my hands, too. So many of us do. So... don't be afraid to talk about it. You can trust me. Us.

[The crew. Even if it isn't just her.]